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    it is 9:36 on a Tuesday night. i don't know if it's still snowing, but i do know it's cold and my palms are covered in a thin layer of sweat. slowly, it eats away at my epidermis like a parasite. soon i will be nothing more than skeletal muscle and a decaying pericardium. i think this is beginning to happen already, this disintegration. it began five minutes and thirty seven seconds ago when i realized two things:
   
    you will never love me.
    i will love you all the same.

    our timelines were never meant to connect, not really. there was just that second-long contact, a chance, a lifetime in my eyes. i keep replaying that moment again and again. i don't remember what you were wearing, how your hair looked, the way your smile looked. no; all i can recall is how your skin felt on your forearm, the sound of a marker against flesh. 
    i realize that that is all we will be: a fleeting smile. a promise to keep in touch. 
    i will never kiss you. i will never get the chance to sweep the hair from your neck, and i will never understand how beautiful you are when it's raining. we will never sing along to my crappy mixed cd's. i will never see you right when you wake up or right before you fall asleep, and you will never know that i think i fell in love with you the moment i saw you, because i love you enough not to tell you.
    blue eyes. i think you looked at the ocean for too long and so it became a part of you.

    someday, you will forget about me, and i will feel it happening; and i will let go, because to love is to let go, is it not? 
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forestmeetwildfire Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
i think you looked at the ocean for too long and so it became a part of you.

:love:
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Student Writer
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tirasunil Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Student Writer
I think I wrote this. Like, you knew that I needed to write this, and so you wrote it with my hands because I didn't have the candor. 
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
:heart: 
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learningtobefree Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Student Writer
you have some very poignant moments manifested here, but i had to work too hard to dig them out. the blue eyes bit at the end was nice, as well as little lines here and there. but as a collective, this piece lacks a focus. the language is decent but not quite there. it lacks a sharpness that i know you are capable of. tie this piece together. remove all unnecessary wording. you are on the spur of something magnificent. 
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :)
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
"blue eyes. i think you looked at the ocean for too long and so it became a part of you."

i love this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you :)
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peaceinnadisworld Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Student Artist
Agreed!
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BleedingProphecies Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Now THIS one hits home in the worst way....

it was a difficult read for that reason, but a worthwhile one, so as to feel less alone. 
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :heart:
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BleedingProphecies Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:heart: 
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Cloud-Factory Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014
"our timelines were never meant to connect"... tangent hearts. This is beautifully written and even more so touching because it fits my life right now. Thanks for sharing! :)
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :love:
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Cloud-Factory Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2014
You're welcome! :)
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delirious-eyes Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
wow, goosebumps. this whole thing is beautiful. i especially like,
"i don't remember what you were wearing, how your hair looked, the way your smile looked. no; all i can recall is how your skin felt on your forearm, the sound of a marker against flesh." 
just breathtaking.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you so much. :heart:
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