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anxiety rips
through my bones
every night when 
I pull the blankets
tight around me.

it's not the
dreams. those i
can handle;
there's just something
that's burrowed deep
inside my ribcage
and clings on with
greedy fingers,
inhaling my mind
with foul lips.

my heart climbs
to my mouth;
and i choke (and
choke and choke and choke)
until i'm a mess
of tangled sheets and
a thousand different
ways that i could have
died. but here's the
catch-- i am not
afraid to die.

i am afraid
that i have already
died.


well
i've had trouble sleeping for a long time, but it's finally gotten to the point where i'm actually afraid of falling asleep because i can feel myself shutting down and then i wake up panicking. i don't know what to do. i've tried sleeping pills, tea, routines, changing my diet, exercising, southing music; different levels of light/sound. you name it. and i just can't fall asleep. i'm afraid of the feeling.
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have felt exactly this way, where you feel your body shutting down and it's terrifying to just let yourself cross that line and drift. You just don't fucking know what's going to happen.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Writer
exactly. it's scary.
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i have read three of your pieces so far. i must say you are now what i dream to become as a writer. i hope whatever troubles you are having subside. a muse amazing as yourself does not deserve to suffer so. please message me with any advice you would have to give me and if you have time could you review and critique my own writing? please and thank you for your time. now, sleep peacefully.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Student Writer
wow... thank you :heart: i will! 
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
absolutly
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WriterInACave Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
This piece is very impressive.  I enjoyed reading it and you provide such amazing imagery.  A pleasure to read. 
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013  Student Writer
thank you :heart:
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shep4life Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Nice imagery. I think you forgot an I with the line every night when ( I ) pull the blankets
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013  Student Writer
thank you. & yes i did! thanks
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shep4life Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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