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i'm finding it harder and
harder
to eat. 

maybe i'm fed up
with winter,
and the snow is clogging my
arteries as i try to
swallow. 
for me, substance as become
nauseating and sends me plummeting 
into a hole
of desperation. 

i am clawing 
at my skin and punching 
my thighs, because
i read somewhere that human 
contact makes us
hungry. i think 
what they really meant is that
we need the touch
of another,
or else we will
starve. 
(baby, i'm already
half way there- hands off
the merchandise.)

maybe i'm guilty.
i read a lot 
about nutrition, and how
nobody ever does it right,
and how kids are starving
while others are
obese, and maybe that
scares me. 

my dad tells me that
i look sick,
but i never tell him
that all i do is sleep 
and it's been days
since i've had a decent meal. 
instead i'm inhaling
smoke and
stars, and i've realized
that i can usually eat
when i'm higher than the moon.

i think that i'm brea ki    n


                                                                            g,
slowly but surly. 
there has got to be more to me
than dry hands and
tired eyes, 
in the end.
i don't know what's going on, and i don't know how to fix it. 
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:iconspiralingspontaneity:
SpiralingSpontaneity Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I can relate <3 if you ever need to talk just let me know, dear. :hug:
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Student Writer
thank you :heart: 
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Roshiray Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2014
i can relate..Hug Heart +fav 
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2014  Student Writer
:love:
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hey. i know you dont know me really at all... but i want to help you. just give you another person to talk to. to confide in... you are too great to feel so low...
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :) i think i'm okay tho.
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
okay if you ever need to talk just shoot me a message and ill give you my personal contact info
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Student Writer
okay thanks
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De7h1nK13 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:)
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shep4life Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry...your poems scream confusion and sadness...please talk to someone
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KuriFatales Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Often, I feel similar to this. It seems as though food has become something extraneous, to be shoved away at a moment's notice when I have more pressing matters to attend to. It didn't used to be that way. Sleep is much the same, although in its case I consider more-so a drug which I do not deserve. Yes, the smoke curls, and sometimes it is nice, perhaps even necessary, to blind oneself with it in order to persevere. And maybe after it's all done is when we stop hallucinating and dreaming and find the "more" to ourselves.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Student Writer
this is exact. 
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16knpayne Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student General Artist
Wow. That's literally all I can say. <3
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
:heart: thank you
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16knpayne Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Student General Artist
<3 No problem.
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Darkness-and-Rage Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
beautiful as usual my dear, so much sorrow and desperation. its almost sad that your work can be so beautiful and harrowing at the same time. im sure you have people you talk to Solis, but im ever here with an open ear should you require it.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :heart:
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I get this. I am this, sometimes. So if you need to talk, I'm listening. :heart:
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :heart:
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blubbityblub Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
i read somewhere that human 
contact makes us
hungry. i think 
what they really meant is that
we need the touch
of another,
or else we will
starve. 

can i just say, wow.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
:love: thank you.
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MisterTotality Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014
Beautiful as always!  It's also easy for me to relate to this.  I've long had eating disorders of my own which come and go depending on my emotional state.  I've often been told that I need to eat something, or that I look ill.  I've found that fruits, vegetables, and their juices help.  By having those on hand I can eat or drink something quick, which might kick start my appetite, and give my body some nutrients.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you very much, for the kind words & the advice. :heart:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Like Secke, I'm here too. :iconcomfortplz: :iconsadhugplz:
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
thank you. :hug: 
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:iconchromeantennae:
chromeantennae Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: It's what friends are for. :nod:
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:iconsecke:
Secke Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Student General Artist
Phyllis, I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Writer
Thank's Sam
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Secke Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student General Artist
You're welcome Phyllis
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